Fuzzy

I don't know what I need to do to get my life in order.  My information was leaked in a security breach as a scholarship recipient at the University of Florida from 2006-2007, so I contacted Equifax so they could put an alert on my social security number, and I've asked my friends if I should sign up with a bureau so I can check my report for inaccuracies.

Today I found out that as a GS700 "student" I am NOT an official student and may have to start paying back my federal loans in the next six months (which I can't afford to do) - and what will happen when I finally start at TAMU?  I need more loans to get me through my first year there.  I'm going to call them in the morning and see if there is ANYTHING I can do.

Tomorrow is my interview at Tiffany's, I'm really hoping for good news from there.  Of course, if it's a good opportunity and I get offered the job and take it, I won't be home for Christmas, which is just about the worst thing that has ever happened to me, including the time I nearly died of a throat abscess and was stuck in hospital for a week with needles poking out of me everywhere.

The idea of sitting at home alone on Christmas night without my family, without my friends, without my kitties, without even a copy of 101 Dalmatians, and the Harvest of Holidays, both of which I have read (well the Christmas section of HoH, not the whole book) every single Christmas Eve for the past ten years...I literally well up with tears at the mere idea.

I was supposed to call the pharmacy today and forgot.  I had an appointment on campus and when I got home and contacted the FLDOE about the security breach I was just so tired it never even occurred to me.  I called Dad to ask about how to report to credit bureaus, and meant to follow up this afternoon but I fell asleep.  I guess it'll be another long night for me tonight...stupid insomnia.

My diet is not going well.  If only I could go running or jogging, it would make such a difference.

I guess I should go to bed.  Maybe "joy will come in the morning" after all.