The Attention Paradox

Isn't it amazing how the minute something gets REALLY important to you, it becomes progressively more and more difficult to focus on it?!

Today after class I went to the Aggie Employment Office and the guy told me I was doing exactly what I needed to do, which was kind of disappointing, because I was hoping for some secret inside track to a decent job (i.e. not humiliating a la fast food, not gross a la fast food, and not absolute minimum wage a la fast food).  On the plus side, he did check, see that I am eligible for Work/Study, and put me on the waiting list for Work/Study funds which will make me more attractive to campus employers.  So yay for that?

Came home, ate, and passed out.  Woke up boiling hot and sweating all over, terrified from some nightmare I couldn't even remember.  Maybe that's why I'm having such a hard time focusing right now.

I DID apply for three more jobs, and will apply for another tomorrow (have to apply in person, bleh), and I've signed up for this website that pays you for your photographs - that is, if someone buys it to use as a stock photo or in a media campaign.  I must go out and find a botanical garden to get a lot of that sort of thing.  Wondering if I can afford some sort of model for person stock photos?  I could always use myself and a remote/timer.

I have some stats homework but I can't figure it out so I've put it aside until tomorrow morning (due tomorrow afternoon), hoping that a decent night's sleep will sort me out.  I've read that worksheet four times and only in the past ten minutes has it begun to make any sense whatsoever.  I'm so dozy right now I had to look at my planner three times to make sure today is the 14th.  No good state to be doing homework in!

In crappy news, I'm going to have to up my data cap on Suddenlink (only found out at 6:30 pm today so I'll call them tomorrow morning), which is going to be MORE money every month.  My email said it's just $10/mo.  This had better be true.  But if I don't up it, I'll start getting fined for exceeding the cap, so I'm going to pay one way or the other.

And finally, I have developed a GIANT zit right in the middle of my face and it's driving me insane because I touch it every time I rub my eyes or scratch my nose and it's big and ugly and I feel like everyone is staring at me!  I'm 27.  This is supposed to be OVER!!!  Okay.  Time to use this "free" time for some research and writing.  Oy.