I'm sick today. I'm also getting in a progressively foul-er mood as the day goes on which is making the lying still and doing nothing even more intolerable than usual. Not that I dislike relaxing; but when I have classes and meetings and work and Stuff To Do, being sick doesn't make me exactly happy, especially with a phlegmy frog in each lung.
Had a bunch of people tell me that I shouldn't date til I'm done with grad school because I clearly don't have time for it unless I plan for casual sex or an illicit relationship with a married man. Frankly, I call bullshit. If grad students are supposed to be working as hard as I do (or harder), why the hell ISN'T there a nice, sensible, responsible guy with a decent sense of humor out there, one who can only afford a few hours a week here and there to hang out together (meals, walks, watching tv - basically decompressing from the hell that is grad school) and eventually really bloody care for each other, the same way that's all I might potentially have time for?! Why do you have to have three or four dates a week to be SERIOUS DATING PERSON? Why is it somehow my fault that I'm too "limited" in not being available on school nights for socializing? I'm so mad right now. It's not bad enough I'm one of about four people in a 50 person department who isn't married/engaged/in a long term relationship, but somehow I'm suddenly a bad person for A) wanting a relationship and B) not being willing to give up my grad school degree to find one?!
I am so sick and tired of being judged, and even more so, being judged and found wanting.
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